Loved Ones,
It's the end of an era today. For much of the last 11 years I have had a
child at my side. The last few with Lucy
who my friends called a little monkey I would swing up on my hip.
Today all my girls go to school all day.
I'm one of those moms that hates this day! For all the moms at the bus stop who cheer, I
am the one with tears.
Last night I cleaned and packed lunches and straightened and
set out clothes and set alarms and when I finally dropped in bed I felt sadness. I didn't want to take the next step!
It reminds me of when I took Nora to day care for the very
first time. I prepared and labeled all
of her stuff and got through those first three days to decide that I hated
it! I hated leaving my child! I did it long enough to be sure that I wanted
to quit and then I embraced mommy-hood.
What a joy and a privilege to be a mom. To be entrusted with those lives, those
souls, those spirits.
My beautiful girls are growing up so quickly. Of course they are ready! The last days of the "Mommy/Lucy
club" are over, and all three are so excited for their wonderful teachers
-- happiness all around.
Still. Like so many
times in my life, I wish I could turn back the clock. I am grateful for each day I enjoyed with each
girl. I am grateful for the chance to
celebrate and navigate the challenges and the joys of each stage and each day. I wouldn't trade it and I'll always cherish
it.
I am very grateful for the fact that I planned for this day
and as my kids took steps forward I did too!
But I will always miss them at my side.
Happy fall. Happy
back to school.
not alone and not afraid --
kristin
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