Oh to never have to write this email.
After meeting with all of Ray's doctors yesterday and today it is clear that they have done all they can to fight this cancer.
Despite the many rounds of chemo, the cancer is growing and getting stronger and Ray is much too weak to endure another round of chemo. Even if he weren't so sick, Ray's liver status renders chemo dangerous and ineffective.
We will remain here in the hospital in hospice care, while they regulate Ray's symptoms and keep him comfortable.
Ray is very tired and his body is crying out for healing. We are so glad that this healing is coming for him.
Oh how badly we wanted this healing to come on earth! We are profoundly sad to think of life without Ray. Though our medical teams had always prepared us for this possible outcome, we have all the while held tight to our hope for God's miraculous healing for Ray.
And, we will never give up this hope till the end. But we know how valiently Ray has fought this fight and we are comforted by the thought of his Father in heaven welcoming home his good and faithful servant.
Our days now are focused on enjoying the moments Ray is awake and holding his hand while he sleeps.
Our girls, who are only now even able to grasp the depth of love for their father, are comforted by your prayers, as are we.
We pray always for healing for Ray. We pray now for supernatural strength and comfort for us, our families and especially our girls, as our hearts are breaking at this loss.
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells.
God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at the break of day.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.”
not alone and not afraid --
kristin and ray