March is birthday month for two of the Fitzgerald Ladies. Today was Lucy's Birthday Party. She turns five tomorrow.
I was puttering around the house getting ready for the party and I just missed Ray. I remembered how for Nora's birthday parties I always gave him the job of the music when we played hot potato. He would download all the princess songs to his i-pod and he loved being the master of the music. I hate it so much that he wasn't doing the music for "Pass the Poison Apple" at Lucy's Princess and Knights party today. I know he would have loved it so much! He loved their parties!
These are the hard things to do without Ray! I get so used to the everyday. But the momentous occasions just aren't the same!!
I was at the grocery store the other day and "I'm Already There" by Lonestar was playing. It really made me think of Ray. And when I look at this picture of Lucy at her party, I see that sun in her hair and I think
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
Oh Ray, I hope you were already there today.
not alone and not afraid --
"And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Matthew 28:20