Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Memories

Loved Ones,

Today marks the entrance to our cancer memories. It was this day, one year ago, that Ray came home so very white and tired from his trip to DC. Remarkably for me, it was only then that I put "burping" into google and came up with cancer. And so, from this day forward, what would actually become reality, was in my sights.

The next few weeks hold so many turning point memories. Ray's diagnosis. Ray's prognosis. The days that changed us all forever.

I do not want or like to look back on those memories, I will be glad to get into the summer where we have other better memories from the year before. However, in looking back, I am still so very grateful for your prayers. That carried us through those days. That strengthened our very cores. And, that help to carry us still, one year later.

Nora asked me tonight how many days of kindergarten Daddy was alive. And so we counted it out. And there were more days with Daddy here on earth than there were with him in heaven. Even this is a blessing, the proximity to the days that Ray was here.

We are grateful for your continued support, the friends who listen and listen, the cards and emails, the thoughts and prayers.

We are ever so grateful to our Saviour, always with us.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength." Isaiah 40:28-31

not alone and not afraid --

kristin

2 comments:

Anne said...

Kristen,

Remember your "cousin" Deb Wolgemuth? One of her good friends was just diagnosed with cancer. She has 3 young children. Her email to Deb and friends reminded me so much of you and Ray's attitude it demanded I respond with a link to your blog," But, above all, please pray that I will not let God down with this huge responsibility that He has given to me. I feel certain that this journey is not really about me but about His greater plan in my life. I desire to live up to that calling.

We still pray for "Mr. Ray's girls"!

Love Annie Woodbury

Melissa Anderson said...

Kristin,

Along with the memory of Ray's diagnosis, comes the memory of being amazed by your strength, and love for God no matter what. You have truly been an inspiration this past year. Still praying for you all!
Melissa